salam..finally today, i wanna tell u abt my story..a mean story i think..hmm.. n u knw its abt who? rite? its abt the guy who i admired.. the thngs he did to me in the past few days..the things tht make me so x sdp at, n cry till i got a headache..huhu..the story start with...me calls amy few days b4..n she tells me again abt tht mr who relli bengang n slh phm wit me..amy said we r in a fight.. hmm? relli? i relli dunno.. so i asked amy to ask him, y he said tht we r fighting nw? but amy too scared to ask..then in the evening i msg him..i ask him abt tht things..the he refuse to tell..i try n pujuk him to reveale..but i failed.. then i try again untill he giv me this kind of msg..with all capital letters..
KO PHM X FARA! KN AKU CKP AKU XNAK PK BND TU LG!DA LA! AKU BENCI KO TAW X ORG YG PAKSE2 AKU GLE BENCI!! ok thts over the limit..me relli crying when he sent me tht msg..it act remind me the incident wit me n one of my fren... she said tht i pakse2 her to do sumthing..haha..so i thought i learn from experience but whn ths happen i rse sgt la truk dri ini..y la i force him padahal die da state yg die x mau pk ths thngs n things between me n him was ok during the days..but when he sent me the msg..i relli cried out badly n feels guilty..but itu diselang selikan with my anger on him..y he act like tht? ape yg aku wat slh kat die? huhu..die pk die punye marah je but mine? he ignores it..wht, he think i hav no feelings? so sellfish! huhu..but then i perform asar prayer n reli2 doa untill my tears fell again on earth..Ya Allah, ape yg aku lakukan kepadanye sehingga die mmbenci aku begini? Aku redha Ya Allah jika die bukn jodohku tp jgn putuskan ikatan persahabatan kami Ya Allah..Ya Allah, Kau ampunkan ape jua kesalahan yg aku lakukan trhdpnye Ya Allah..amin.. tp aku juga nak die rse berslh ble die sent tht msg to me..then,1 hours n 30 minutes later, right after i prayed, 1 msg in.. n i thnk thts him..i'm rite..thts relli him.. he asked me whthr i wanna knw y? then i replied, of course i want..
mestila nak tp ko marah aku td so, cam seram plak..few minutes after i replied br die msg, he said,
"Sbb ko dpt sms hangat dr aku, semua yg berlaku hye rekaan semata mata dan takde kena mengena antara yg hidup n yg tlh mnggl dunia..dah2 jgn ngs lg..kah3 ok?" So, he play fools on me...huhuhu.. i cried sumore..huhu, he plays fools on me..again..uhuhu.. then aku marah die, i said,
ko mmg kan, ske wat aku cam ni, ske wat ak ngs n x sdp at..ko gembirakan ble aku ssh..then he try to pujuk me..huhu, i still relli bengang at him n say if my parents ask y am i crying u answer for me..then he said,
jgnla cmpur parents..i asked..
bp rmai da jd mgsa? n wht he feels when he doing ths thngs..he said thts die
bt kt org yg die brani nak wat..so, i'm in the list rite? huhu..he also said
gembra la jgk ble wat benda2 ni tp rslt yg salu die dpt from my respon slalu mengejutkan...hah, br ko tau..huhu.. pastu aku suh stop msg utk tenangkan dri..suh die jwb kat parents aku if dorg nmpk mte aku merah2..he replied,
ko ckp la ade org gle bg msg yg kejam lgi sadis..haha..'thts so relli funny'. i still bengang n i replied, using the angry msg he gaves me
.."KO PHM X FARA! KN AKU CKP AKU XNAK PK BND TU LG!DA LA! AKU BENCI KO TAW X ORG YG PAKSE2 AKU GLE BENCI!!ko benci aku? tp aku ske ko..hah, itu sume x ptg skrg sbb ko kan benci aku" so, i confess dlm keadaan marah..hish, wht am i doing..act nak je smbg msg tu sbb die x bls my last msg.."asal diam? ko ingt asal aku salu malu kat ko? asal aku salu bg rslt yg mengejutkan ble ko wat cmni kat aku? asal akusalu msg wlupun aku tau ko xkan bls..suem atas satu sbb, aku ske ko tp itu sume x ptg skrg sbb ko benci aku kan?." but i deleted tht msg without sends it..huhu, terasa kejam plak nak anta...
but the next days..i feels so guilty n x sdp at coz send tht kind of msg to him..its not relli me..then i apologise to him n ask him to abaikan the last msg sbb aku sent msg yg ngarut kat die..sbb aku still marah kat die tht time....am i stupid bcoz apologise to him? i thnks not, bcoz my when i feels like doing somthng i relli stands to it..few minutes later, he replied he says,
iyo, tenang2..agp negligible..g pun bkn salu dpt luahkan prasaan.. ngehaha~ thts make me blushed, yela sbb die tau aku confess kat die..haha..so evrythngs back to normal..alhamdulillah..me n him still frens like always...n i am hepi with tht.. its ok wit me.. if love come btwn us, aku trime, if not aku redha.. ends of thts..alhamdulillah, finally it ends..peacefully..amin..thnx Allah, x dpt aku ungkapkan puji n syukur kpdMu krn pertelingkahan antra aku n die berakhir dgn aman wlupun aku tau die mainkan aku..aku lega sbb aku tau sbbnye wlupun die juz nak mainkan aku..drpd x tau2 pape..lg x sdp at aku dibuatnye..guy2, asal la ko wat bnda cmni? plik tol..hehe..
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