aku penat!

salam.. aku penat da. aku penat mlyn karenah manusia yg berbgai rgm. ssh nak puaskan ht sume org. nseb baik ade certain2 org yg ok. hmm, ade yg x pk org lain, die igt die je ssh tp aku x ssh. ish, ade yg xreti nak jg ht org, men redah je ckp...ade yg ske igt org x bt keje hye sbb xbuat dpn die. huhu.. ade plak yg ttbe je nak trase n push org pdhl nak sngkan die jgk... .org x bg keje nak keje, ble da bg xmo plak..hye krn diri trase dipinggirkan..ko ingt ko sorg yg pnh kne pulau ke? ish! bengang btol!. blah r! brambus! spe yg trase..sedar2 la dri. jdla matang. idop ni bkn lme pun. x gne nak bt cmtu. sshkan org. n buat org skt ht. aku ni bkn nye jenis yg cpt trase n x ske nak sktkan ht org tp kkdg kalo da thp mlampau org sktkan tu bengang rrr. skit2 sdh, ni da smpai 2 hr ko ungkit, pehal? sabo najwa, sabo....huh, ujian2.. hmm. the guy who i admired said itu bkn ujian, tp takdir. if ko anggap itu takdir, mcm Allah xtau ttg ko.ibarat pensyarah yg nak bg ujian sbb nak tau thp kite. hmm btol gak ktenye. then aku tye my naqibah..she said, mmg btol.. tp x leh bezakan 2-2 sbb mmg takdir tlh ditetapkan, tp kite ade kuasa utk mmlh wlupun plhn itu jg Allah yg ttpkan. Dia Maha Tahu Segalanya. dan stiap takdir itu, trdpt ujian di dalamnye. phm kan? phm3...done. idop aku mmg busy thp dewa.. tp alhamdulillah, kewajipan x lupe....itu ptg! kalo yg wajib lupe..xgne wat yg extra..kan??heheh...

singkatnye idop ni...

Salam…hidup ni memang singkat. Kita ibarat saudagar yg singgah di suatu tpt yakni bumi ini utk mndptkan bekalan utk dibawa ke akhirat. Br2 ini ktsn(my college) dikejutkan dgn pemergian seorg muslimin iaitu Allahyarham saudara Aizat kos audiologi kerana kemalagn. Al-Fatihah kepadanya. Terasa btol ht ini wlupun dirinya tidak aku kenali. Ya Allah, dgn sekelip mata shj Kau blh ambil sesiapa shj yg Kau kehendaki dri muka bumi ini. Bgitu takut htku apbla teringt akan kematian. Cukupkah amalanku? Ke syurgakah aku? Atau ke nerakaMu. Ampunkan aku Ya Allah. Bgitu byk dosa aku kepadaMu. Taubatku utkMu Ya Allah, Tuhanku. Ya rasulullah, akan dptkah aku syafaatmu? Ckpkah ia utk aku memasuki syurga Allah? Salam ke atasmu Ya rasulullah. Ya Allah, rindunya aku akan rumah Mekah. Rindunya aku akan ketenangan aku sms di sana. Apbla di sana aku tdk memikirkan hal2 dunia Ya Allah. Berilah aku dan keluargaku ke sana lg Ya Allah. Murahkn rezeki kami agar dpt kami ke sana lgi. Ya rasulullah, rindunya aku saat aku ke makammu. Pilu sgh htku sms brada di makammu di madinah. Andainya kau ada di sini, akan amanlah dunia ini di bawah bimbinganmu. Aku ingin ke sana lgi. Insyaallah~

sengal lgi..best pun ado.

salam~ wifi ktsn sengal lg. someone plez do sumthing..idopku sunyi tnpa tenet di cc. aku mahu pulang. rindunye rmh... huh, sabtu aritu dgnn sgala kesibukan, tp aku berjaya ke pementasan Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical di Istana Budaya. da la ujan btol. lebat plak mse on the way aka jln kaki dr kolej ke ib. haha, lencun btol, tp redah jg n the rslt berbaloi. wallaweyh, best nyehhhh. aku ske gle tht plays. mgkn ade org x ske klasikal story tp aku esp aku yg jiwang ini, ske jg. romance btol hang tuah dgn gusti putri. sdp plak suara2 mereka. x tergambarkan aku btapa seronoknye aku..huu, nak tgk lg!. sdh plak ble sad ending tp pe blh buat da kshnye mmg mcm tu. kalo ubah t kte ubah sejarah plak. haha.. abis je kne rush gle..xsmpat nak autograf mereke.. (abg ajib amikkan!!plezzz..haha). tp ,,g mntap la tht show. k la. idop ni mmg busy kebelakgn ni. di t,bh dgn incident2 emosi yg rsenye x perlu kot... hmm pape pun dah settle. (i'm dancing)ngahaha.. tradisional je, x gns n lembut sgt pun x. bt kaku sudeh..haha.

tagged again

salam i'm posting again this tagged things.

Who is the last person that hurt your feelings?the guy who i admired..haha, although he dunno anythng...juz feeling like he's hurting me deep inside.
Ever started a rumor about someone?no..juz spread the rumor which others started..dunno it is true o not..but slalunye true..
Have you ever been accused of cheating on a partner?no..i'm a good person..cewah~
Ever lied about your age?no..but in mirc yes when chating wit the people i dunno during form 1..haaha
Ever felt the need to change yourself for someone?always..n trying also.
When is the last time you prayed?everyday...unless cannot(period).
Have any of your ex's turned gay?no ex.....
What do you wish you did for a living?working as sincerely as i can..n hepi always.
Do you consider yourself trust worthy?yes. i'm a gud listener..
Ever used a fake ID or one that wasn't you?yes. chating in mirc again..
If your last ex apologized, would you get back with them?depends on the situation.
What family member are you closest to?my sis i guess...
If nothing was holding you back, where would you live and why?wit my beloved family...they will always help me when i'm in trouble..
When was the last time you cried?yesterday
What is the earliest memory you have of a sibling?always gaduh dgnnye...n aku seorg pembuli to my sis when we were young now is vice versa..haha
Describe your typical day, from wake to sleep.wake up, doa, mandi, solat, g kuliah, mkn, smbg kuliah, blk, mkn diner, meeting, solat, tdo.
What would be your ideal birthday present, and why?anything..but when i hav a husband someday, i would like he's the only one who buy me a big bear...haha.
What is the best advice you ever received?a lot but he once said,...mmg pht.tp igtlah byk hikmah sbalekny mmg sdeh tp kte taw 2 sme ketentuan illahi. sbb 2 kte kna cnta Allah melebihi sgala2ny.lps 2 bru parent.mksdny bkn la x leh syg prnt.bleh n truskn cz byk phl dpt.tp cnta kpd Allah 2 prlu lg hbt.so ble org2 yg kte syg da xd kte akn mdh acept n reda.x bemakna klu org 2 da xd idup kte useless cz kte taw Allah msh ad. bkt cnta kpd-Nya dgn amal la. cthny bce quran n tejemahan. bru kte nmpk quran 2 sbnrny bku yg luar bese.cm kt cni dak2 laki ad byk tmpt nk g tok tzkirah.so dptkn kuatkn smgt.klu ppuan x taw la.kna pndi cari. pas 2 tahajud 2 yg ptg. insyallah xd rse nk givap. klu apearance plak pki sopan2.klu ppuan pki 2dg labuh.klu akak nk pki tp mlu pki cm mardhiah uia x-h43 pn da ok. cz klu org tgk akak n dia igt Allah akak da dpt phl.mmg ad yg pndg plek tp 2 sme ujian. insyallah. hope2 kte dpt reda illahi.. kekuatn bkn prlu dtungu utk dtg tp dibina oleh dri sndri mulai saat ini :>
If you could be anybody, who would you be?someone who people luv...n maybe bella swan coz he got edward.
Where would you travel, if you to live anywhere?mekah o madinah..tpt yg plg tenang!
What time period you would like to be born in?luv 1989...
If your best friend came to you depressed and upset like you've never seen before, how would you react?try to comfort him/her...asked her to cry hw many time as he/she likes smpai die lega..
Would you be a different person today if you had a different childhood?maybe..thnx 4 my parents who always jaga me..although sometime i felt like my life is dikongkong during my secodary school time...
When have you realized you were really wrong in your judgment about someone?hmm...sometimes kot.. so i'm sorry k..
How do you react when you realize you've made a mistake?feel so damn guilty...
If you had to sacrifice one of your senses (taste, touch, smell, sight, hearing), which would you choose?all dontwant....
Who has more power the government or the people?people...they can do anything if they unite.
What is my earliest or happiest memory?hmm..matriks kot...knw a lot of nice people n the guy who i admired....
When were you the happiest this year?my birthday....20..
Describe your dream house.house full of laughter n easiness...haha
What are a few qualities you dislike in other people, and why?dun appriciate, belagak, sktkan ht org, ckp x pk, byk lg la...
What music makes you want to get up and dance?super junior songs...
How would you spend your time if you were wealthy?no need to work..go holiday in the high standard hols packages.
Complete this sentence: Love is…love is happiness yet complicated
What are you most grateful for?family n frens.
Why is your best friend is your best friend?listen to my prob whn i need to story to someone t least.
What is the best decision you have ever made in your life?going to KMJ....x nyesal lgsg!
Do you have demons in your life?hmm...dunno.
Are You Happy now?so-so
Who's the next person do wish to tag this post? hihi.. enjoy~MYE, FARAHIM, DILA MAS AYA AIMI N 5RUZ.U'VE BEEN TAGGED BY ME.

hmm..

salam...
this post also got from one of my fren...huhu, mcm terase je ni..hmm..but i'm still praying that he will be my guidance towards Allah..if he is good for me, good for my Islam, good for my children, good for my family n good for my frens, i still want the guy who i admired to be my beloved husband. so, doa is the only things that i can hook up for now. istikharah?hmm..aku terlalu tkot utk tau jawapannye. but later insyaallah. for my fren, we got the same problem i guess

from, ayaharith~
"Sangatlah menyakitkan mencintai seseorang, tetapi tidak dicintai olehnya. Tetapi lebih sakit bila mencintai dan tidak pernah menemukan keberanian untuk memberitahu mereka apa yang kamu rasakan. Hanya perlu satu minit untuk menghancurkan seseorang, satu jam untuk menyukai seseorang, satu hari untuk mencintai seseorang tetapi membutuhkan seumur hidup untuk melupakan seseorang. Mungkin Tuhan menginginkan kita untuk bertemu dengan orang yang tidak tepat sebelum kita bertemu dengan yang tepat. Jadi ketika kita akhirnya bertemu dengan orang yang tepat, kita akan tahu betapa berharganya anugerah tersebut"

edward's bio..

salam..this is my bbf aka boyfriend forever, the edward cullen's biodata.. got ths from my frens blog. so ti juz copy n paste it on my blog azue..hehe, neway we both luv edward rite..hmm so u guys enjoy.

Aliases: Edward Anthony Masen (human name)

Species: Vampire

Gender: MaleAge: 17 (biological), 104 (Twilight novel, chronological), 108 (Twilight movie, chronological)

Date of birth: June 20, 1901Date of death: 1918 (as a human)

Occupation: Student

Family: Edward Masen, Sr. (biological father)
Elizabeth Masen (biological mother)
Esme Cullen (adoptive mother)
Carlisle Cullen (adoptive father)
Alice Cullen and Rosalie Hale (adoptive sisters)
Jasper Hale and Emmett Cullen (adoptive brothers)
Charlie Swan (father-in-law)
Renée Dwyer (mother-in-law)

Spouse(s): Bella Swan

Children: Renesmee Carlie Cullen

n the class was cancelled..

salam..n as the title say, the class was cancelled! huhu..argh kalo tau aku blk after exam smlm.da dpt 2mlm...huhuh.. then tmrw also got class. but i dont think it will be cancel. hehe. but a lot things to work out this weekends.. wit the pengurusan emosi assgmnt, laporan klb muzikal, lab rprt fzk, publict mkn mlm syuhada, ahad got recycle day, anatomy assgmnt...hah. byk nyeeee. kerinduan thp max kat umah..huhuh. hmm weel smlm g mid after test. then be there till 9pm..fuh lmekan. but all the things i want to buy ade je sumthng yg myebbkan aku x jadi mmebli.. mau bli kasut flat xde size, mau bli beg pk blk tgu la next sem, mau bli ink printer rsenye blh dpt lg murah, mau bli twilight saga for my fren sis yg kirim da sold out, mau bli Mckinley human anatomy taxt book xde plak n hrgenye agak mhl la rm180..huh. at last xbli pape. nsb bek g tgk wyg-GENG,pengembaraan bermula.. nice! best! hebat! mantap! xsgka msia blh bt animasi cm tu, 3d plak..so i'm proud to be Malaysian..hehe.

p/s: fikir mse dpn....hehe

done!

salam....done wit mid sem test! finally... last test was biochem..juz now, n i tell u it was horrible! men letak je jaw mne aku ske..huhu.. Ya Allah, hrp2 luluslaaaaa.. and the fact tht i relli HATE biochem is damn TRUE!

kekecikkan kehatian...

salam..
aku ketinggalan.(xperlula tau knp)
hatiku menjadi kecil.
sktnye. sampai ht.
i'm crying~

anat..oh biochem!

salam..da selesai anatomi manusia 2.. alhamdulillah.. entahla, nak kate ok cm x ok. nak kte x ok tp byk yg jwb..btol x btol tu redha je la..huhu.. yg ptg da selesai! the next hell is biochemistry metabolism..argh..br start enzymology. carbhohidrat n lipid nak bt harini.. persoalannye: SEMPAT KE? isk3..ape yg blh je la...huhuhu. tkot siot!

p/s: mengalami kesengalan badan yg agak trok dr mlm sblm anatomy..huhu spe mau tolong urut aku? :-P

crazy monday going to tuesday!

salam.. huh, start the monday by 9.00am..revising the physics..then ready to take exam n lunch. exam start at 2.30pm..alhamdulillah..ok, although some questions i relli dont care if i dont knw..haha. then went back n get to on9 till nite. watched korean dvd for 1 episode then start the biochem crazy subject at 10pm in my frens room. mcm nak gle aku..huh smpai kul 3pg..with biochem although 4 1 hour i slept at her room around 1am to 2am..In 5 hour time, we juz manage to finish enzymology chapter (thought wanna continue with carbhohidrat). look small but act a big chapter n relli hard to understand chapter wit all the equations. ish3.. huh. then sleep at 3 am in tuesday n finally get up at 10am..need to study anat b4 the exam tommorow..uhuh.. act the study group of anat has finished last saturday but me got to cover 1 chapter coz cant join them for this chapter. all bcoz of the meeting on saturday nite...hmm..

to shazwani..

salam...to shaz, happy journey back to Indonesia..I'm relli5 gonna miss u.. a lot..take care..uhuk2..sob2.. i'm crying~

mid sem test..

salam...mid sem test menjelang..ish da la trok btol wifi kat kolej..so sgtla menensionkan! huhu.. kecelaruan maklumat berlaku antara fizik anat n biochem..eh, x, biochem mmg kosong in my mind( mampos aku) huhuh. to all my frens gudluck k. salam imtihan. PDR pasti berjaya! cewah!!! ahakz.....ngehehe.. for the guy who i admired..gud luck to u too..(die pun test gak, i guess).

i cant public speaking...

salam...i'm frustrated. y everytime i went in front of people and try to public speaking it will be upside down and not like i would expect. huhu, aku keciwa...sgt! huhu..i hav a bad experience in public speaking ever since in my primary school. that memory haunted me still untill now. that morning i supposed to giv a public speaking about Tok Janggut, the title that i choose from a book, untill the 1st papragraph, i past but when it goes next, i suddenly in silence....i can't memorize anything tht i should speak.. then i stand thre all alone in silence and went back to my sit w/o a word. huhu.. i'm so sad coz all my frens in my class can do it very fluently but y its not me? huh.. now, today, als0 i have a few seconds in silence during the public speaking time. i feel so bad. frustrated. n sad. how cant i manage to memorize the text? padahal, its juz an introduction..few line for about 2 mnts. hw am i to survived the body of content for the next session? abt 8 mnts. huhu.. Ya Allah, kuatkan daya ingatanku...terangkan hatiku...amin. huhu

ktsn sengal..hahaha

salam...so for not updating this few days..it is all bcoz my kolej kediaman nye internet is blocked..huhu..ditambah dgn kebzian tahap melampau mgu lepas dan mgu ni..termsk my mid sem test juz around the corner..pray 4 me ya.. huhu..oh biochem..aku x phm mu..nguahaha..sdhnye.

he's back..

salam..so, he's back..n i'm happy for tht. got bttfly in the stomach..hehe. great to hear tht n relli thrill n lega also. ktenye mau ke kl today..got trip nak ke petrosains..hmm... best2! wlupun rsenye tu tuk school kids..tp byk gak yg blh blaja kat sne... so, enjoy ya!

he's act there..

salam...u knw rite ths few days (in exact timing is around 9 days) he's like so invisible..i'm to curious to knw but too scared n shy to ask.. from last week i relli want to send him a msg but my little weak body do not hav enough strengh to juz to msg him.. so, then i felt sooo sad n r_n_u him..i dunno y i juz couldnt express tht words..anyway, i hav send him a motivate kind of msg but like always, he mmg x reply tht kind of msg i guess.. so then..i've been thinking whre the held he go? how is he? is he doing fine? but i juz couldnt msg him..my head is all thnking abt him since my CNY hols but my hands couldnt move to ask him hw is he.. maybe bcoz of my principle..hmm remembr rite..check the older post under zz labelled. but then, today i dunno y i felt like wanna msg him so much n ask, at last i text him...n then, he told me his internet connection in his kolej kediaman in utm has been block..la....br la aku tau..lega rsenye..
but act somethng came up to me last nite when i told my fren abt ths matter..she ask me xnak cr yg lain ke?i said dunno...n y, then she said, he's not fighting for me. hmm..she's got a point there. quite rite n i feel sad abt tht. the fact that tht guy never relli msg me o maybe nvr thnk abt me also but me who always couldnt pull out his name over my head n who always start the msg, its juz not fair..but i know Allah knows what's the best for me. so, i leave it to Allah n pray. hope for the best for me.. sometime i felt like i'm not qualified to get such guy.thts y i always terasa rendah from him. but my frens always said tht me deserve better than the person who always play fool on me..n not appreciate me whom which someone who admired n like him since last 2 years. but i dunno wht to say..mybe they juz know the bad part of him but dunno the real nice person he is..tht full of nasihat n motivation n jokes. but i relli dunno, all i know is i like him. but act he also not relli response to my confession...mybe he juz not the type who thnk abt his personal life..n me who always be the jiwangs among my fren who always think abt my future personal life. he always said...'nt ble ko dah kapel' the phrase tht i thnk he means tht i must find someone else other than him..is it? people r rite tepuk sblh tgn mne nak dgr... so izzit he relli reject me as the person who relli admired, cares n fall for him n ask me to find someone else..is tht his intention when he said ble ko da kapel? hmmm i dunno wht to thnk pun.. huhuhu..

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CNY hols

salam..as u all know my hols started by going to a famosa waterworld on saturday..

on the next day which is on sunday we went back to my hometown in jb..huh, perjalanan yg sgh memenatkn, pdhl xdela jauh mne pun...u knw wht, kat kaw RnR(rehat n rawat) supposedly tpt yg sng nak cr mknn..but suddenly the RnR tht we stopped there was fulled of askar..ish! semak btol...bukan nak kte pe but be gentlemen la..aku da bratur kat ctu lg nak menyempitkan sblh aku..its rude! man! ish..jd je askar but whre's ur manners? sengal..dah la tpt tu penuh korg plak wat hal, ingt tpt tu bpk korg puye?! jd trpkse la lunch dgn sandwich..huu, lapo btol.. then we stop in machap i guess then kat ctu pun pnh..yela ct CNY kan...then we proceed to the restaurant thre nmenye..Wakomo..its look nice from the outside but act like hell on the inside..sedh btol..ruang bkn men byk tp tpt ddk sikit nak mampos..Ya Allah..plik btol..but then terpksa la duduk gak sbb kat RnR pye restaurant da xde tpt.. so g la bli lunch, ish brator plak pjg..mne xnye cashier sorg je..then bygkan dari 10 sets of meal..no 6 7 8 9 10 xde! baik tayang 1-5 set je..sengal..huhuhu.. so, pasrah je dgn membli ayam gorng..(rindu kat kfc)nguhahaha.. atlast kenyang la gak..wlupun mknn die x sdp! seriusly, mmg x puas! smpai je umah atok, ptg tu belahak nsi n lauk opah msk, fuhhhh lega..hehe.
at nite, we went for bowling wit famili.. cik dd, cik atun,cik entong, apis, ika, uda, cik arun, fakhri..n like always..markahku di tpt yg 2nd last..ngeheehe. x reti men pun, juz play 4 fun jew..hmm

on monday plak lepak umah atokk je..x kemne. ajak apis g k.oke tp ktenye bz..so aku redha.. but then

on tuesday, me,apis uda n ika n fakhri teman apis g bli printer..and we went to karaoke box at angsana plaza..but all flly reserved. we decide to wait n finally get a box. we bought 10 songs for 10 ringgit. n we shout like hell inside there when we sang.. we sang: yang pernah(estranged), unfaithfull(rihanna), cinta kain putih(sutra), lagu utkkmu(MUH), setanggi syurga(inteam), main tarik tali(elyana), tiada lagi(amy search), and few more songs..dont remember la..hehe.nice sakit tekak aku hehe.. at nite we went boling again..wit acik2 yg lain.. then me n my siblings sleepover maklong aka apis,abg ajib, ika house..ngehehe..

on wednesday my famili n i went to tph baju for us for my pak usu kesayanganku pye majlis perkahwinan..we pkai sedodon..hehe wrne biru n kuning.. me wat bj pahang. then eat lunch n went to mak uda's house.. rehat kat ctu petang blk umah atok...

kamis, blk kajang.. jumaat g metropoint jmpe shaz, aniqah n kak atiqah..bli bj through blog www.notoneoftheboys.blogspot.com nice!!!! puas ht sgt. kak atiqa yg bt..hrga blh bincg..slLUNYE DPT MRH RM10 hehe..so jmput la ye ke blog tu..n shop thre.. br findout shoping blog br www.shoppashoppa.blogspot.com my old skool fren pye blog..sue. hmm bj byk dress..but okla. chat dgn dorg till in the evening. cut my hair..layer, then blk umah, at nite g alamanda.. my aunt nak bli kasut, kat ctu da de big apple..so bli la big apple..sdp2.. hehe.. sabtu plak g jmpa kak atiqah lg sbb bj yg die suh try blk umah 2-2 x muat tp aniqah bli..so nak bg duit, then teman uda( my sis) went to salon n cut her hair.. wat layer jgk, sibuk je.hehe act die jeles kat my rmbt yg sdh layer lg cntik ni..hehe. then g bli my dad new hp..murah je rm450 Nokia 6880 rsenye..lme nye design..tp ok la..nice gak dlmmnye. ahad lak g umah org kawen n ptg g mkn luar kat Yati Ayam Percik in Prima Saujana..sdp2.. best2..hehe then go to slayang n visit my atok.. around 10.30 br anta aku back in ktsn..huhu.. end of my hols..but act after ths pun nak ke mid hangout wit shaz,syahir,christine n fiona..hmm nak bg shaz kek. 31st of jan is her birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY 20 SHAZ.. c u there..

so...as conclusions..cuti kali ni bz je..wlupun x bz dgn assgmnt but bz g jalan2 n famili matters..nice3!!! luv ths holidays.. but after ths need to worries abt my mid sem test tht will be around 16.2..xpe! Cahiyok najwa!! aku blh!! yeah2!! (he still invisible)