huhu...

salam..y am i not relli hepi? hmm..maybe bcoz i spend time in the normal bored course csmp..its realli nothing special abt tht camp..same like those kem motivasi yg i went during skool time..hah.. n sumore i xdpt hanta my grandma to hajj..ya Allah..sdh sgt... i try to skip my camp, i called my kezen to pick me up..and i asked my pak usu to help me..but both cannot..4 a reason..huhu.. then i thought i can reach serdang b4 8pm..but the bus suddenly stopped at seremban to buy dinner..huhu..mmg la x smpat..i try to ask my kezen whether i can take a train n go to kelana jaya..but act my granma nak check in at 9.00pm rupenye..so xsmpat gak..at last i givup n xpat anta my granma..huhu. in the bus i cry agak trok la..luckily no one notice coz my partner turun kat serdang..huhu.. redha je la..Allah da tentukan benda yg lebih bek agaknye..hmm.. done wit tht. i asked amy to ask the guy i admired abt me n him.. then amy ask, wht abt me n him nw? he said me n him still like always, juz frens..n he said sumore he wanna find gf in 4 years time..hohoo.. so i was not speacial for him, i juz an ordinary fren like others..i felt so sdh n relli heartbroken.. i cry lg..hmm.. i knw maybe some1 out there r much better for me..but whn u reli like some1, u thnk he is the 1 for u..the best for u..the person who can make u hepi.. huhu..but when he say i juz the same like other frens, it make me feel so dumped n he doesnt appreciate me.. all of my support on wht he is doing all ths while, my msg to him although i knw he may not be replying..r like vry normal to him..huhu..how could u, guy.. u r so speacial for me,but me juz a normal fren 4 u. u dunno hw much i jeles whn u talked to another girl..u can laugh wit them, u giv ur ldk girl the same strawberry that me ask u to buy.. u tumpang a girl when u want to go back during sem break..u dunno hw much i worried when u cant finished ur work..when u were sick. u dunno hw am i exited when i can cooperate wit u during mlm dinamika as ajk, how exited i am whn u asked me to hld ur chemistry lect note when u got koko to attend, i repair ur koyak pnye notebook, how exited i am when i get to buy u a notebook, ur pendrive, when u went to the bazaar wit me during ramadhan, u buy the same food tht i bought, exited when u suddenly agreed nak ikut we go to the kolam..n u finnaly came althought a bit late, i kept a small bunch of bread for u to giv to the fish.. hw i can remember u gentel tht roti n jentik tht roti to the kolam.. u giv amy a bunga n amy said it is 4 me.. i stil kept it in my handbag.. hw sad i am when i thnk u r in a tension cndition. hw i rela to tolong u as long as i can..when u like marah me although i dunno whthr u marah or not whn i asked somethg tht u hav to pick up few time..maybe u fed up i ask few times but act i couldnt hear ur voice when i called u..n u not replying my msg..i juz try to be a good assistant to u. u dunno hw my bad view of u during the 1st time we r at the same class changed when i saw u behind the dewan n study b4 the mid sem test..u dunno wht is my feeling when u came to kajang n met up in the komuter, we went to the clinic wit uda n u r so exited when u asked abt to be a researcher..when u suddenly chnged ur placed rather than sit beside uda u changed n sit beside me.. whn u came to my house, the 1st guy fren eva came to my house, u dunno hw i felt when i c u wanna solat in the ruang tamu untill i asked to solat in my bro bedroom..u dunno wht i felt whn u baring in the hall upstairs using my bantal while i and uda try to solved the folio..u dunno wht i feel whn we r eating together in the admin cafe.. u want to eat my food coz i cant finish it. u dunno act y i always x selera if u r here wit me eating.. i will always take a little nasi n small lauk n eat bcoz scared it might not finished bcoz there is u..hw i malu wit u..y i malu wit u..it is all bcoz i like u tht much..i rmmber wht eva thngs happen btween us..although it may not be special to u...then u said, we r juz frens..wht do u thnk hw i feel rite? its hurt..huhu..

strawberry u buy 4 me..although act i bought it..haha

last piece of ur strawberry tht nite..

cenderahati u gave to me as a present for our bio grup..