i'm scared..huhu

salam..on 4.5oam..last friday, suddenly my phne is ringing..i pick up n there was a guy voice..huhu he knws my name..farah najwa..he said he want to be fren wit me..oh no! i'm damn scared..i hate ths type of tactic..he said we hav been chat during my f5..as long as i concern, in f5 i dun really chat..n sumore how does he knows my hp no?mxs no lg..hish, pdhl i juz changed from dg to mxs awal 2008..hmm,so i said it is wrong no..i dunno u..n thts it.. aku letak, tp die kol n kol n kol..aku jwb but i left the phne beside me n whithout saying a thing..hello, its 4am, sape mau dgr..aku mau tdo, dr dgr tu bek aku wat solat snt malam..tahajjud..but act i'm damn scared coz he knws me..he says my details..but tht was long time pnye details..he talk ntah pape n i'm not even listen..aku bgn solat tahajjud mta jauh dr anasir2 yg x diingini..n he stop.. tp di hati ni Allah je tau btp aku meggl mse aku biarkan tht phne on n he's on the line..huhu..aku btol2 x ske kalo someone yg not fren of mine tetibe wat camtu..huhu.. kalo nak kwn kena someone yg btol ade kena mengena ngn aku..classmate ke, kuliahmate ke, same board of ajk ke..n so on.. i'm not the type who can relli accept anybody to be my fren.. even on fs..someone who i dunno, i reject the approval..sorry..excpt 4 gals..i can consider gals as my fren..although i dun relli knw thm but guys..oh, no way!!..

i'm on the way to lumut..4 holidays bt act my mind still thnkg abt tht incident..cant 4get it bcoz it relli made me kecut perut..huu.. then 4ptg he calls me again, i answered n marah kat die..i dun want to be fren wit u..n so on.. he refused..pujuk me to try to accept him..i still reject.. he says he's from the same place whre my home is..whteva.. but it relli made me even more scarier coz i'm not feelin safe anymore, i'm not feeling free n always feel thts someone watching me..but the conversations finally ends. but i still feel unsecured untill now..huhu..please la dun disturb my life..aku da byk benda nak pk da..xyah la nak tmbh lg..huhu.. time2 camni la aku rse dri ni memerlukan someone beside me to protect me..oh guy..it is u i thnkg rite now..if u were there 4 me, i will not feel scared like ths..bcoz i knw u r there to protect me..huhu.. kalau la i can call u tht time to try n comfort me..hmm.but i knw it wont happen..so i let it go..tht friday nite suddenly guy who i admired msg me..oh, hw nice untill aku trase mggl, sumore my hotel was oo cold tht nite..so i hav to stop msg him n sambung later..hehe, he says jgn tglkn aku..oh x!! camni la kan, sampai ht..hhehe..so, i promise him i will msg him the next day...
so saturday morng i msg him n he's replying during afternoon..we hav a long chat abt our vacation n i tell him y i feel scared n gigel, abt tht incident which unkwn guy kaco me..although he plays fools on me on tht matter, at least he knws whts going on..n try to make me cheerful..ya, i feel tenang n vry thnkful to Allah n to him..thnx coz make me feel happy after all the scary thngs..untill now, the crazyman didnt kaco me n i hope 4eva.. i'm praying 4 my safety..so on wit my frens..n my family..

p/s: najwa principle of fren..XKNL MKE X BLH KWN.. or najwa principle of life partners..i wont start the msg till the guy who i admired start msg me 1st..k..