road to succes never easy

salam...ya, as in title..road to succes is never been easy..always hard. but v mst keep going on coz it also never stop. i juz went back home last friday..ot was awesome. but the thing is, my heart is juz never stop beating fastly.. dunno y, mybe bcoz i'm scared to the fact that my finals is going to start on 20th of Apr..n i'm not ready yet. n maybe i worried abt my family..hmm.

the things that i am sad abt:
*i worried abt my ayah's condition which is he is diabetes type 2 patient. as u all knw, when diabetes hits u, u nvr gonna be as healthy as u r rite now. same goes to my father..all he have to do is controlling his diet which is very hard to person who working hard for his family..w/o support he might not be well. n i'm very damn scared of that. huhu.. i'm crying when he says that, nobody want to cook for him to control his diet.. he must asked to cook a special food for him..i feel so guilty coz i cant be there for him. i make promise to my self that when my semester ends..i will be cook for him. bfast n dinner. lunch cannot coz he's working. i've prepared for him a note in my parents bedroom to make he noticed abt the food that he's going to take daily. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kami kesihatan yg baik~ amin.

*my sis gonna be away to further her study as i am..i knw i shouldnt be sad but must be happy of this..but i cant imagine my life w/o her in future..when i went back home, she is the closes person who always make me laugh n make me feel comfortable..she will always call me when i need her although sometime she refuse to listen to my probs..but atleast she's there..since i'm away for matrics, almost everyday she calls..until the bils are relli high..huhu, huda, i hope u succeed!! i juz dunno wat's gonna happen this sem hols. i'm gonna relli miss u dear..more than u miss me. i sure abt that.

*another frens gonna be away from me..n that is syahir aka syahira..she's going to iowa..US to further her study on actuaral science..relli gonna miss u like i miss aimi, shaz, fairuz n all my frens that is pretty far from me..huhu. take care dear. hope u'll be ok n succeed. no more frens gonna hang out in mid o pavi; shaz syahir n me always hang out together back then..esp after spm time until now. huhu. next is sabi aka sabrina..n syazareena..so aniqah we'll be together. both of us in msia lastly...

p/s: praying the best for all of my family n frens~