he's act there..

salam...u knw rite ths few days (in exact timing is around 9 days) he's like so invisible..i'm to curious to knw but too scared n shy to ask.. from last week i relli want to send him a msg but my little weak body do not hav enough strengh to juz to msg him.. so, then i felt sooo sad n r_n_u him..i dunno y i juz couldnt express tht words..anyway, i hav send him a motivate kind of msg but like always, he mmg x reply tht kind of msg i guess.. so then..i've been thinking whre the held he go? how is he? is he doing fine? but i juz couldnt msg him..my head is all thnking abt him since my CNY hols but my hands couldnt move to ask him hw is he.. maybe bcoz of my principle..hmm remembr rite..check the older post under zz labelled. but then, today i dunno y i felt like wanna msg him so much n ask, at last i text him...n then, he told me his internet connection in his kolej kediaman in utm has been block..la....br la aku tau..lega rsenye..
but act somethng came up to me last nite when i told my fren abt ths matter..she ask me xnak cr yg lain ke?i said dunno...n y, then she said, he's not fighting for me. hmm..she's got a point there. quite rite n i feel sad abt tht. the fact that tht guy never relli msg me o maybe nvr thnk abt me also but me who always couldnt pull out his name over my head n who always start the msg, its juz not fair..but i know Allah knows what's the best for me. so, i leave it to Allah n pray. hope for the best for me.. sometime i felt like i'm not qualified to get such guy.thts y i always terasa rendah from him. but my frens always said tht me deserve better than the person who always play fool on me..n not appreciate me whom which someone who admired n like him since last 2 years. but i dunno wht to say..mybe they juz know the bad part of him but dunno the real nice person he is..tht full of nasihat n motivation n jokes. but i relli dunno, all i know is i like him. but act he also not relli response to my confession...mybe he juz not the type who thnk abt his personal life..n me who always be the jiwangs among my fren who always think abt my future personal life. he always said...'nt ble ko dah kapel' the phrase tht i thnk he means tht i must find someone else other than him..is it? people r rite tepuk sblh tgn mne nak dgr... so izzit he relli reject me as the person who relli admired, cares n fall for him n ask me to find someone else..is tht his intention when he said ble ko da kapel? hmmm i dunno wht to thnk pun.. huhuhu..