i cant public speaking...

salam...i'm frustrated. y everytime i went in front of people and try to public speaking it will be upside down and not like i would expect. huhu, aku keciwa...sgt! huhu..i hav a bad experience in public speaking ever since in my primary school. that memory haunted me still untill now. that morning i supposed to giv a public speaking about Tok Janggut, the title that i choose from a book, untill the 1st papragraph, i past but when it goes next, i suddenly in silence....i can't memorize anything tht i should speak.. then i stand thre all alone in silence and went back to my sit w/o a word. huhu.. i'm so sad coz all my frens in my class can do it very fluently but y its not me? huh.. now, today, als0 i have a few seconds in silence during the public speaking time. i feel so bad. frustrated. n sad. how cant i manage to memorize the text? padahal, its juz an introduction..few line for about 2 mnts. hw am i to survived the body of content for the next session? abt 8 mnts. huhu.. Ya Allah, kuatkan daya ingatanku...terangkan hatiku...amin. huhu